"Je-sabel" (part2)

I have this dear friend that I haven't seen and talked to for quite some time. June 11, 2008 was the last time we talked . We unexpectedly saw each other on a bus (where we met several months ago) going to Baclaran at around 8:30pm. I had mixed emotions that night ("di ba madam?"). I'm so happy to see that person yet for some reason I'm sad. I want that night to be endless but ofcourse it ended and I thought everything stops there. I haven't heard from that person since then. No text, no phone call. Not a single word at all. I almost thought that person is dead. Yesterday, that person viewed my friendster profile. Then, as I view that person's profile this evening, a voice was telling me to add that person to my YM list, which I did. I didn't expect that person to be online, though I am hoping at the back of my mind...hehe! To make the long story short, we chat. And I must say, this is one of those painful conversations I've ever had. It seems to have no emotion. No meaning. Just plain, short conversation. Nakakaloka! Awwwww!

Je-sabel (9/25/2008 9:51:50 PM): hi there!

Brokenangel34 (9/25/2008 9:52:01 PM): musta?

Je-sabel (9/25/2008 9:53:22 PM): ok lang

Brokenangel34 (9/25/2008 9:53:37 PM): good. nice to hear that

Je-sabel (9/25/2008 9:53:53 PM): ikaw?

Brokenangel34 (9/25/2008 9:54:08 PM): im fine

Je-sabel (9/25/2008 9:54:17 PM): what are you doing there?

Brokenangel34 (9/25/2008 9:54:30 PM): vacation.

Brokenangel34 (9/25/2008 9:54:36 PM): need to fix some issues in my life

Je-sabel (9/25/2008 9:54:38 PM): ah ok

Je-sabel (9/25/2008 9:54:51 PM): til when

Brokenangel34 (9/25/2008 9:54:59 PM): october

Je-sabel (9/25/2008 9:55:08 PM): my cousins are working there

Brokenangel34 (9/25/2008 9:55:14 PM): really?

Je-sabel (9/25/2008 9:55:21 PM): have a job there?

Brokenangel34 (9/25/2008 9:55:43 PM): nope i don't.

Je-sabel (9/25/2008 9:55:53 PM): rich kid!

Brokenangel34 (9/25/2008 9:58:09 PM): so san ka na work?

Je-sabel (9/25/2008 9:58:22 PM): same

Brokenangel34 (9/25/2008 9:58:38 PM): ah okay... kala ko magbabarko ka ulet?

Je-sabel (9/25/2008 9:58:42 PM): about to go onboard sa barko next week

Brokenangel34 (9/25/2008 9:58:51 PM): i see...

Je-sabel (9/25/2008 9:59:45 PM): gtg

Brokenangel34 (9/25/2008 9:59:52 PM): ayt

Je-sabel (9/25/2008 10:00:00 PM): i'll be closing my shop already eh

Brokenangel34 (9/25/2008 10:00:01 PM): nice chatting with you

Je-sabel (9/25/2008 10:00:13 PM): take care there

Brokenangel34 (9/25/2008 10:00:18 PM): ingat lagi

Je-sabel (9/25/2008 10:00:20 PM): bye

Brokenangel34 (9/25/2008 10:00:22 PM): bye

HEAVEN

Today is my fourth day here in Singapore. Medyo late na tong blog entry na'to coz I'm suppose to write this nung nasa manila pa ako. I have a heavy heart when I left not just because I'm not sure what's in store for me here but also because I'm gonna leave a lot of important persons in my life. Thinking about the things that might happen, I realized several things. Things that might mean nothing to you but means everything to me. Some of those things were:

SOME GOOD THINGS NEVER LAST - nothing is certain in this world. Don't be afraid to take risk. You won't know how deep the sea is if you won't take the plunge. Allow yourself to experience life. You won't know how good something feels unless you embrace it with open heart.

I LOVE YOU ISN'T JUST A WORD - don't say it unless you mean it. When you do, make sure you act it. Take every opportunity to make the person feel that you're real coz you don't know until when you'll gonna be together.

TRUE LOVE KNOWS NO BOUNDARIES - hindi issue and distance at age sa totoong nagmamahal.

HOME IS WHERE YOUR HEART IS - it's not about the place you live in but the person you share your life and your heart with. I may be in Singapore but I'm heavenly home in the Philippines, the place where I left my heart.

I'LL BE BACK - Personally, I'm very impatient. I hate waiting but I can wait when I am told to do so. Maling magpaasa at umasa na magiging kayo parin kung hindi mo naman sinabing gusto mo pa. Never make the people around you guess. That's why I told YOU and I'll tell you again WAIT FOR ME! The ANGEL belongs only in HEAVEN.

KEEP IN TOUCH - you don't have to be together to show how genuine your feeling is. Learn how to reach out. Thoughtfulness makes a difference. A simple text can mean a lot. Sabi nga, it's the thought that counts.

OPEN YOUR HEART TO POSSIBILITIES - changes happen when we least expect it. Don't dwell on negative things. Think possitive. Sometimes, bad things happen to allow something good to happen. Trust yourself. Trust love. Trust God!

HONESTY IS STILL THE BEST POLICY! - kahit gaano ka-complicated ang isang bagay, you have to say it. Be honest to the person concerned. Huwag kang magsinungaling dahil natatakot kang maiwan. Mas iniiwan kasi ang sinungaling kay sa sa taong hindi perfect.

NO ONE CAN DECIDE FOR YOU - unless you allow them to. Don't let people control you. You have your own heart and your own mind. USE IT! Listen to the voice within.

I RESIGN!!!

I am officially resigned from work effective August 30. Honestly, I don't want to take that action but circumstances forced me to.

I'm gonna miss my uber sa galing na Uk 87 family (si boss jabar, bulinggit, maria jose, sonny boy, tin, baboy, hyper b, beyonce, luigi, patchie, piong, kulas, siopao, graciana, ms. avila, nene mane, at bevs), yung mga sobrang kulet na mga friends (di kasali yung feeling chick-magnet ha!), unforgettable "moments", my locker, the sleeping quarter, yung mga super hanging na pc's, ung vendo sa pantry na laging malnourised at walang laman, mga pagkain sa pantry na iba-iba pero pare-pareho ang hitsura at lasa, ang nakakairitang british prank callers, mababait na tl's pati na nasa st. rose at ung papansin na si kero, pa-cute na tdo-ops, hr peeps, at ung trainer na... well, never mind! hehehe...

I really enjoyed my year long stay and I do wish I could stay longer especially now that I found someone who appreciates me and love me for who I am.

To everyone, thanks for making my work experience a memorable one. Till we meet again mates!