confuse..

This is an entry that I don't know how to start. I don't know how to express what I feel. I don't know how to say what I want to say. I don't know if any of the words that I will write will matter but somehow, I know it is necessary. I feel sad, hopeful, happy, alone, misunderstood and lost all at the same time. I need to let all this confusion out of my chest.

Recently, I came from a break up. I was totally devastated. I am lost. I tried to keep myself busy for me not to feel any pain. I want to stop asking myself these stupid questions: Why do I need to go through all this? What did I do to deserve all this shit? When will I find true happiness? And where should I start the changes? Until know, I don't know the answers to those questions.

Now, someone is offering his love to me again. My heart is heavily broken. I don't know where to start. But I am hoping that his love is enough.

I am surrounded by uncertainties and the only thing certain right now is the fact that I still have a heart. A brave heart that is willing to take risk. It may be broken but not missing. It survived so many heartaches and if this guy hurt me too, I don't know if it will still do. JAI HO!