A while ago, I chat with "akachan". The conversation started sweet and very heart-warming. I am really excited. My heart is pounding really fast. My heart is field with joy. But all of a sudden, the mood starts to turn grey. "Akachan" became quiet and the next thing I know, "akachan" signed out. I know I said something that hurt "akachan's" feelings. But I swear I didn't mean those words. I am sure that there's never a time that I didn't trust "akachan".
Sometimes, when we are so comfortable with another person, we tend to lose ourselves. We do and say things without considering the other person's feelings, thinking that they know us well to understand what we mean. When I said "you are not sure about yourself so I' not sure about you, too", what I really want to say is "How do you expect me to trust you if you create doubt on my mind?"
Many times I've been reminded, "Be careful with what you say. You can hurt someone." So, I try real hard to control my emotions and avoid saying something today that I might regret tomorrow. I try to be as open-minded and understanding as I can to protect and preserve good working relationships, friendships, partnerships and most especially romantical relationship. Then, I came to realize that choosing the right words to say isn't enough. We should also learn when to say what we want to say. When someone is serious, do you think joking is a good idea? I believe this is when sensitivity should come in. Understand other people's feelings by simply looking in their eyes. Listen to the message they send not on the words they use. Be aware of their actions. Try to see the tears behind their smiles and hear the sound of joy underneath their cry.
Right now, I'm scared. I'm scared that I really hurt "akachan" and that is the last thing I ever wanted to do especially to the one I truly love. I'd rather hurt myself than let them feel the pain. I know "akachan" is vulnerable. But, so am I.
Sometimes, when we are so comfortable with another person, we tend to lose ourselves. We do and say things without considering the other person's feelings, thinking that they know us well to understand what we mean. When I said "you are not sure about yourself so I' not sure about you, too", what I really want to say is "How do you expect me to trust you if you create doubt on my mind?"
Many times I've been reminded, "Be careful with what you say. You can hurt someone." So, I try real hard to control my emotions and avoid saying something today that I might regret tomorrow. I try to be as open-minded and understanding as I can to protect and preserve good working relationships, friendships, partnerships and most especially romantical relationship. Then, I came to realize that choosing the right words to say isn't enough. We should also learn when to say what we want to say. When someone is serious, do you think joking is a good idea? I believe this is when sensitivity should come in. Understand other people's feelings by simply looking in their eyes. Listen to the message they send not on the words they use. Be aware of their actions. Try to see the tears behind their smiles and hear the sound of joy underneath their cry.
Right now, I'm scared. I'm scared that I really hurt "akachan" and that is the last thing I ever wanted to do especially to the one I truly love. I'd rather hurt myself than let them feel the pain. I know "akachan" is vulnerable. But, so am I.
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